haiz. the show over le. I am finally FREE. but kinda sad. i starting to miss Nat and the other superstar le. hahas. Daren is the overall champ. hahas. Hmms. No feeling. hahas. Not happy and not sad. hahas.. Cos, in my heart only got one overall champ that NAT. hahas..The sms i recieved today is really touching. hahas. 10 SMS lor. He think he writing essay or compo? lols. He is CUTE lahs. hahas. Glad that He notice that he is not responsive and cold when he get eliminated. Hahas, but i understand lahs, i want him to rest too. anyways, NO MATTER WHAT, NAT IS STILL THE BEST! HAHAS! he ROCKS LIKE SIAOOOOO! hahas, NATMANIC ROCKS! HAHAS!

ANyways, recently i felt pretty stressed. VERY STRESS. I dunno what happening to me. STRESS for studies and relationship stuff. I am VERY VERY STRESS for my studeies. Totally not in mood to study at all. Totally not in mood to do my prep for art. ART SUCKS! I have totally no idea of what i am doing now. AHS! I got to pass up a composition on wed. AHS! STRESS AHS! Another thing that make me stress and broken is him lor. hahas. let name him mr T, the problem is the more love i got from him, the more broken i am. The problem is he dunno how much he is in my heart as he only treat me as a younger sister bah. The better he treat me, then worse i feel. I might feel blessed to have him by my side. but, after that i still felt bad. This love i have for him may be very inpractical. Cos, no way he will be with me. He is soo near yet soo far. He is like soo far away from me. I dunno what to do already. This feeling seems worse than the feeling i used to have for mr X. speaking of mr X. hahas. I felt that my latest addiction, Pornsak looks like mr X. hahas. So CUTE. alright i am crazy. hahas. But to mr T. hahas. ALthough when he treat me very well i will feel broken. But, if he treat me very cold, i will feel more bad. hahas. HAIZ! I AM STRESSED . He made me get over mr X. hahas. He is the only one that make me get over mr X. hahas. FINALLY. hahas. although sometimes i still go gaga over mr x. hahas. but it not a wrong thing to do what. there is a saying, a women won't ever forget the love they had for the guy. Even they had move on, they will still have feeling for them. I believe in that. hahas. That why, i still a little gaga over kean. hahas. But, he is just my friend now lahs. hahas.

It late. i think i go slp le byebye. Good night. hahas


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