hmms. i currently think who should i ask to accompany me to go to mdc to support nat. cos. nat will giving two tix. hahas. but i have no one to accompany.
my list of friends,
huiqi -hms. she used to be the one to accompany me to be idol chaser but she doesn't want to support anyone aradi. hmmms....
edwin and benjamin - ben having o levels. edwin lazy to go without his bro, ben
szuchian - she say don't know that black pig would allow her to go home late mah.
sheena - aiyah. she ah. sure no de. hahas. cos. very late mah. then her parent sure wun let her go. hahas.
chermaine and cherilyn - can't reach home late too. hahas..
gladys - i decided to ask her. wahahas. cos. maybe she can go home late. hahas.
huda - maybe will be asking her too. hahas.

anyway i shall blog tml if i got the time. tatas~


5:00 PM

its past 12 already. hahas. first wanna say happy birthday to cedric. =) second, his birthday present will be me saying goodbye to him le... i don't know why i have feeling that me & him will never me together. cause he seem like he have given me death sentences already. this about one and a half years of loves for him seem like it is not appreciated. hahas. my feeling is sour and bitter. time isn't everything. really isn't. there is friends who call me give up and call me continues. i am confused. really confused. soo i decided by my own decision, give him up. no matter how hurt will i be during this process. i will still continues to give him up. but i know i will be the one who hurt myself. but after everything i will be the happy kelly again. with no worries and sadness. i really wanna be happy again. not a faked smile... a happy one. & holidays is coming. i will take the chance to give up on him de. i just hope the pain could quickly be heal. anyway, next yr N level will be coming. i just wanna concentrate on my studies. i don't want to retain. i want to a top student like hanxiang. hahas. top in n level! i wll strive very hard. i hope everyone would support me. =)


12:25 AM

hmms. it about 2am in the morning. i should blog before i sleep.hahas. today is 28 oct le. tml his bdae. hahas. anyway, ytd i went to houg mall with me sis. i saw adriano. hahas. disappointed. hahas. actually not him who disappointed me. hahas. is his friends who ruin his reputation. hahas.. he was like hanging out with the bunch of girls which were in those sexy clothes. i wonder why those girl wanna wear such sexy clothes? seduce guys huh? hahas. frankly speaking but no offence, i actually look down on those girls who like to wear sexy clothes. once in a while is fine lah. but i seen girls who love to wear sexy clothes and show off their assets. hahas. you may think i am jealous or what lar. but i am not. hahas. cos. i dont think assets make differences. HELLO? ain we are the same? still girl right? hahas. whatever! i shouldn cares soo much. hahas. its not my problems. cos, i will never be them. hahas. but mini skirts is fine with me!! hahas. =). anyway, iam really bored today, so me & my sis did a little art. hahas. we have nothing to do. soo we paint the small box which my mum take back. hahas. i will post the pic soon lar. hahas.. i think i got to sleep le. good night~


2:08 AM

hmms. i think i should blog before i sleep bah. kinda relieved today. becasue i get to promote to sec 4. yeahs. but BOO! cause not all my friend is safe to get promoted.but they were given another chance. hais. i felt kinda sad for kahjing. if he don't go up this year. he will be retaining for 2 yr le bah. CHOI! touchwood!! lols. then he will be taking his o levels at 19? DON'T WANT!! lols. the class will be siann. without him. hahas. liang hao get to promote soo happy for him too. anyway, didn't do very well for this year. because i slacked alots. many agrees. haiz. anyway. this year's remarks by mr tan. hahas. its about the same as last yr which mr bay gave me. both form teachers say i am cheerful. hahas. i think they meant talkative. hahas. i think they should write : kelly, you are TOO talkative in class. pay more attention. wahahas. lame.. hahas. haiz, lately i tend to hurt myself by purpose. like punching and kicking the wall, but no matter how hard to hurt myself. i don't feel the pain anymore. cause there is more pain in my heart bah. i should just get over it, and continue my life. but more i think about it, then more i wanna hurt myself. but don't worry. i won't kill or cut myself. hahas. cause i scare of blood. if i wanan dead, i will dead pretty... hahas. and i can't think of anyway that could commit sucide and still dead pretty. hahas. lame.oyarh, i got something to ask from my friends. STOP CALLING MY NAME OR HIS NAME WHEN YOU SEE HIM WALKING PASS ME. i was quite pissed off today actually. when we are going back class from the hall. i was like walking pass him with my class. then hida started shouted KELLY, cedric lehs. i was like i am not blind right? why does she wanna do such stuff. i know she is NOT the only one of my friends who did this. but i just wanna say DON'T DO IT AGAIN. i will feel VERY VERY irritated. i guess he will feel irritated too. i am trying hard to forget my love for him. cause i carn forget EVERY PART of him. cause he is alway around me. i meant in school we see each other. soo for my good. when you see him just don't call his name in front of me. or say my name in front of him. and one more thing. STOP asking his friends what he think about me or he likes me anot.. I know the answer already. i know you peeps cares about me. but the more you cares about me, the more hurt i will be. i don't want to cry again.


11:11 PM

soo upset.. hahas. with two things. firstly abt yesterday. i cried in school because of him when recess.. it was right after he left the canteen. i don't know why. just that the patient i gave to him is really over the limit. my heart just can't stand it already. although he did nothing to me. anyway. today is another thing. friends of nathaniel is call me to close down my yg for nat. and stated it as it was nat who say it. please lor. nathaniel call me NOT to close down lor. stupid people. they think they use nat name and i will close down. do thing without using their brain. i simply hate people who use nat's name!! nat explained to me about everything. and he is dedicating his first song he will be sing which is liu sha of david tao to me. hahas. don't know its real anot or making me happy only. hahas. nvm. even if it is making me happy. i am happy le lar. hahas. iam his fav supportor okays? lols. just kidding. hahas. but nathaniel really brighten my day. hahas. make me hapy again. smile. =)


12:32 PM

i am soo tired and sleepy now.. yawnn.. today got back a few of the exams results. disappointed... very disaapointed... my math actually failed. OMG. but my common test result could pull me up. =). but i will still be just pass bah. and my english. haiz. failed AGAIN! stress. then my combine science, its still okay lar. not very good results though., but still pass. chinese. soo surprize. i actually passed!!hahas. although is pass by a few marks. but happy lar. then got back social studies. ehs. also passed. pass by a few marks too. mr shafiq teach very good. hahas. he teach my class le. my ss alway pass. wahahas. happy. =) then my art. yeah! i got A2. =)). very happy!! hehes. today soo sian lor. kept checking exam paper. hahas. then chinese mr lee take my class. sad.. next yr he won't be taking my class for chinese. he will be taking grp 3. piangs. i want mr lee lor.. haiz. then next yr de tcher will be a tcher frm other school. haiz. then after school, go to musci room. practise the dance for chennai trip. soo stupid got to perform for them. i sure fgt all the steps. hahas.. i rather sing lar. hahas..


9:44 PM

ehs. i am starting my idol craze again. i thought i stopped when SI 2 started. in SI2 although i support paul & joakim but i didn watch a single show , only the first round. hahas. and when i switch the tv channel to channel 5. then lucky got SI. then i watch a little bit. hahas. i didn watch the final too. cause. working. hahas. but now, PSS 2. making me craving to support them. LOLS! especially shiyu & nathaniel. shi yu is the past winner of star search with felicia. i know him from somewhere. but i forgot where. LOLS! and yah, nathaniel. I GIVING HIM MY SUPPORT! lols. he can sing lor. lols. i just saw his audition clip on youtube. not bad lar. quite shuai too. but make over sure can make him more shuai. oyarh. another guy, zhang le sheng. not really support him. but i felt that he have talent lar. he wrote songs for mediacorp de somemore. and look like lee wei song when young. hahas. i am idol crazy liao. lols. i wanna set yg for nathaniel. but i got to contact kernbai fc first. which is set up by nathaniel friend. hope to join the community of nathaniel. LOLS! nathaniel craze. =)


12:15 PM

hahas. FINALLY FREE FOR EXAM! suddenly felt like very relieved. hahas. kept running around!! SMILE~. hahas.. ehs.. today art arhh. 2 hr 30min where got enough!!! i no time to do finish. HAIZ! the physic. HAIZ! very difficult. hahas. but lucky those i revise did come out. hahas.. but i think i will fail a couple of the mid year exams. how what if i retain? haiz. i know my sure fail is MATH!! haiz.. had been very stress lately. teacher cheated my feelings. they told be the paper will be easy. BUT IT IS SOO DIFFICULT! mrs lee say. easy yet challenging. she seem like she not answering me the qns. haiz.. die le lar.. i try to flash back the paper lar.
1) chinese : alway my weakest subj. i guess i didn do well. anyway. i asked ms teo abt cedric marks. actually not i ask lar. my friend went kpo. hahas. anyway. he pass. SOO GOOD~ i hope i pass too. hahas.
2) english: i don't know what thing i writing for the compo. hahas. it just doesn't make sense. hahas.
3) math: i said already SURE FAIL!
4) social studies: hahas. ehs. 50-50. source based qns, ehs.. i don't know how to do. wahahas. anyhow try.
5) geography.hahas. my most confident subj. hope i can score here lar. but a few qns i dunno. cos. very difficult.
6) chemistry: hahas. this one can laugh. quite easy. but some qns. dunno how to do.
7)physic: can say lucky lar. those i studied got come out.
8) art: NO ENOUGH TIME!!


8:33 PM

hmms. today had geo & math paper one exam. CAN DIE!! hahas. OMG! i am tired today soo kept falling asleep during exams. hahas. haiz. tomorrow will be chem & math paper two. and i haven even study lor. hahas. lazy lar. hahas. today didn see him much. only assembly period saw him. sad. soo today only saw him once when he is walking to the hall. sad. why i cannot have my exam in the hall too. hahas. CANNOT! later i never do my paper. cause i will get very distracted. hahahas.. after school soo funny lor. hahas. run away from mrs danapal from one staircase to another. hahas. ran until the bball court there. then discuss where to go and study. then mrs yong chase us away cause we are making LOTS OF NOISE! hahahas. then we went go to the bus stop and discuss. then at last, we said we go jason's house downstair de void deck study. soo went home and change. meet at 1.30 lor. then hor. SOME PEOPLE LATE!! hahas. caixing ;liang hao and lian shun late. hahas. caixing actually called me earlier NOT to be late. hahas. then he ownself late. hahas. nevermind lar. i not soo xiao qi de. hahas. then we meet lar. then went to eat at hawker centre. hahas. then went to jason's house the fitness corner study instead. so we used the sit up de thing as out table. hahas. but everyone like no mood to study. study awhile jiu go play le. hahas. cos. beside the fitness corner is playground. soo we play blind mice. wahahas. AND i never kena catch at all. hahahas. i monkey lar. hahas. i climb to the roof. hahas. my everytime hideout. hahas. actually i very scare de. when the first time i climb up. i climb up with jason koh. hahas. then i soo scare that i will fall down cos. its kinda high. and i fear of height. hahas. but play more not scare le. still can cross leg on the roof. hahas.jason koh really is like monkey lor. hahahas.. then after that jason went home get the basketball. then we play basketball. haas. then when want go home. they stupid lar. kept suaning me and kahjing. kept call kahjing to send me home. =.= . i only asked him:" kahjing. must walk which direction to go home arhh?" cos. jason hse near my hse. hahas. then they start suaning us le. hahas. then nvm lar. then i walk back to kovan with lianghao; caixing and chermaine. then take bus go home. hahas.. tomorrow chem and math. must go study le. hahas.


10:11 PM

hmms. its 8.13pm. i just got home from loewe's house. hahas. many things happen today. let start from early in the morning. hahas. finally felt mrs danapal is quite humourous, because today actually the sec 3 express had a exam but normal dont have. so they will be having their exams at the hall. hahas. then mrs danapal ask all the sec 1 -2 and sec 4 to 5 go back their class but not sec 3. soo one class by one class she ask to go to hall. until A1. then she asked:" what are we doing here?" hahas. then the n(a) people say: "you also never ask us to go." then she say:" ahh.. you all wanna cheat mrs danapal ah?". then we all laugh. so when she wanna ask A1 to go back class. she say again: " you all E what?" then we A2 de say:" E6!!!" cause mrs danapal alway mistaken that sec 3 have 3E6. hahas. but only sec 1 and 2 got E6. hahas. then we scare her catch us for our sock or hair lar. cause before that some people were chaught by her. hahas. soo we walked one big round. then after that, mr tan NAG at us again. then art. hahas. got nth to do. sat around joseph & liang hao to see them paint their art piece. hahas. then while going back to classroom. soo happy. saw cedric in exam. hahas. =D. i guess i saw him lar. then mr tan lesson almost fall aslp. hoping his lesson end earlier. hahas. then i found out the more i see the clock the time go slower. soo i don't see. indeed the time became faster. hahas.^^ ,then recess nth much happen lar. then english. my class is making a din in class. SOO NOISY OKAY? who say A2 is quiet. only when mr tan lesson lor. hahas. then mrs lee treaten us again. say those who never do her work will have offence slip. ARGH!! don't you think its too much? just a little worksheet kena offence slip liao. haas. i don't care lar. i anyhow scribble some sentence and hand up. hahas. then MT. ehs. didn go to MT class. because the express no MT that day cos, they have exams. SOO GOOD! i still got to stay until 1.30 pm. hahas. nvm. then we played true or dare. hahas. my class favourite game. hahas. WE JUST SIMPLY LOVE TO SABO PPLE! hahas. then we made a little noise the relief tcher shout soo loudly. haha. and scold bloodly hell and damn. hahas.. WHAT A BAD EXAMPLE!! hahas. then we start imitating him. kept saying bloodly hell. hahas. that a word we learn from a teacher okay? hahas. the teacher let us go early. hahas. then as i am trying to close the window. i saw cedric outside HOD room. hahas. and chermaina and MJ is making a din again. haha. i admit i were very happy when i see him cause the whole day didn manage to see him lar. hahas. then went canteen to wait for cherilyn. then waited for loewe and his sis to go shopping for food for the baby sis huihui. at the end, loewe bought food for himself. and spend abt 17 plus just on the tibit he bought. hahas. HELLO? we suppose to buy food for huihui not you!! hahas. greedy boy. hahahas. aiyah. his money anyway. i don't care. hees. then i went home change at go out again. go to chermaine hse then loewe hse to study. hahas. then we order pizza for ourself to eat. yummy. hahas. then something happen i shall not say. hahas. then went home le.. oh yarh. MJ gae me a bear ytd. it was soo KAWAII!!! hahas. she got one too.


8:19 PM

lalalas. soo late le i haven't sleep sia. although i very tired now lar.. but i thought i could think of something to make my blog alive since there ain't any people tagging. hmms. today stayed at home and do nothing, didn't study lar. but only did my art exam prep. but i spend my own day doing a broken mirror sketch. hahas. kinda moodless to study. i found out something. i find it better to study outside where is quiet and have NO COMPUTER. lols. cause, i carn resist from playing computer. hahas. today went a little mad kept singing and singing. today i flash back KOne song. i wonder when they are coming lar. miss them. haiz. i went back to bangzhi web to see. bangzhi is in auckland,new zealand. soo jealous. hahas. now my brain gonna burst liao, stress like mad, he go go zealand play. hahas. hope he have fun and take care bah. hahas. soo sian. hahas. i soo sian. let do a survey bah. hahas.

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: kelly
Birth date: 11 jan 91
Current status: single
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: black
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: horse

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: chinese. =D
Your fears: height & darkness
Your weakness: laziness
Your perfect pizza: hawaiian

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY,
TOMORROW:
Your thoughts first waking up: oh, its morning! =DD
Your bedtime: usually very late
Your most missed memory: ehs. sec 2 camp.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Mcdonalds
Single or group dates: group dates
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: lipton tea
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: NO. NEVER!
Curse: hahas.
Take a shower: diao.
Have a crush: hahas. =)
Think you've been in love:maybe
Like(d) school: yar
Want to get married: maybe
Believe in yourself: abit
Think you're a health freak: not really

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: yar
Gone to the mall: ya
Been on stage: no
Eaten Sushi: yar
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: no
Dyed your hair: no

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: no
Changed who you were to fit in: no

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age your hoping to be married: yar

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: his natural colour. lols. i like guys with blue eyes. =)
Best hair color: his natural colour lar.
Short or long hair: his will. hahas. as long he look nice with the long or short hair

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: this?
1 HOUR AGO: ehs. tv!
5 HOURS AGO: doing my art prep cum tv.
1 WEEK AGO: ehs. slping?
1 YEAR AGO: LOLS! slping?

LAYER 11:FINISH THE SENTENCE
I LOVE: my family ; him and my friends
I FEEL: hazy. lols
I HATE: liar.
I HIDE: myself. hahas
I MISS: dad ; him
I NEED: my brain to work. LOLS!


1:12 AM

haiz. now my mind is COMPLETE HAZE. lols. cos. outside is really really hazy until the beautiful moon disappear. soo sad lor. the moon is really GORGEOUS! today were fun actually until i stopped playing and stare at the moon. and seeing two couple moving around. hahas. i started to miss someone. really miss him until i almost cried. it was like today morning we just met. then now really wishes to see him again. haiz. today having english exam. i screwed it lar. my summary writing anyhow write de. WAHAHAS. :) . my report writing the format i also not sure so i anyhow write also..WAHAHAS. then after school went to houg mall kfc makan with sheena & twins then lowee came. lols. then he soo guai take my n level paper to do. hahas. then later sheena went home then go twins hse sit a while then go lowee house, his baby sister, huihui soo cute lor.then play with hui hui awhile. until 7.30 liddat then went back to twins hse to makan dinner. yummy! lols. then 8 pm go back lowee hse again. then go down play fire. wahahas.. then lowee brought this girl which he like, make our mood foul cos. we dun like her. especially lowee's sister. hahas. soo nvm lar. we just let lowee go entertain her. lols. then the rest of us go play blind mice. soo tired lor. hahas. feel like going back to pri school like that. WAHAHAS. lame.. then play candles and sparkles. hahas.. then abt 10 plus. lowee father brought hui hui down. then we play with her.. lols. then there were some teenage playing with fire. and created a big fire lar. then the police come they run away. soo lousy. lols. scare still wanna play. hahas. then go back to lowee hse to put hui hui back to sleep. then a while later jiu go home le. haha..


11:17 PM

hahas. i am soo amused by a jack russel. when i am on the bus, i saw this dog running very fast on the road. actually i wasn sure whether is a dog or a cat. cos. it is soo small & cute. hahas. then the bus stops a busstop, the dog board the bus. AND IT WAS SOO FUNNY! he run up to the seat at the back. the bus uncle waited for a while. but bo bian cannot wait soo long.. hahas. so, he drove off. i was like WOW! he dog is soo clever earn a free ride on the bus got air con some more. wahahas. then the dog was like walking around. hahas. then next stops my stop le. hahas. cannot see the dog le. hahas. i love jack russel. soo active. hahas.=D


4:45 PM

arghh. over stress le. and angry from toe to head. LOLS! today after recess, i put all my anger on the chairs and tables in a lee class. overwhelming of stress. DYING SOON! never felt soo stress in exams before. sianns. exams is like this thursday. and is my least fav subj. CHINESE!! die! haiz.. then english.. haiz. next week, MORE EXAM!! haiz. when can i rest?? HAI!! die die. my god. help me.. haiz... i felt like shouting at someone. scolding someone. but i would not feel good to scold pple. sometimes i wonder. those pple who shout and shout at others w/o using their brain like a lee. do they feel good when they scold us? she is soo freako lor. today in class. i really is upset with someone le. until i almost cried. soo i didn talk at all. the murali & gang talk soo loudly shout & shout. i shout at them to ask them SHUT UP! a lee scold me say i keep talking today. DUH!! when did i talk. that the very first time i open my mouth to speak for her lesson okay. damn pissed off. she talk w/o using her brain. yar yar yar. she is alway right. i always wrong can?? my fault! my fault!! ANGRY!! i very stress le, still anyhow scold me. ARGH!! i reply her back. " WHEN DID I TALK SIA! I SHOUTED AT MURALI FOR YOU OKAY?" then she diam diam. EVERYTIME LIDDAT!! know that is her wrong always keep quiet. NO MANNERS! wun say sorry de wors. then, later she came to my table and ask us not to talk. and WE DIDN TALK AT ALL AGAIN!!! something wrong with her eyes or ears. today in her class me ; meijun and huda never talk lor. we soo guai also kena say by her. NOW, i know why pple just carn shut their mouth up when attending her lesson. because, you talk and dun talk also will kena scolding. arghh. she kept picking on us lor. arghh. haiz. hmms. dun talk abt her. make me more angry. hahas. another thing. i had been thinking recently... when i am younger, we always say friends forever , besties forever. is there really friends forever? those friends which we used to say friends forever like yingshu ; cass and jin. seems to have their new friends. this three girl which will really be my best friends which i hope to be forever seems further away le. i miss them. really do. like yingshu. she is my BEST friend of the three when i am in primary school, we had been friends since pri 3. now. she is no where to be found. except seeing her in msn or friendster. but we didn talk le. even when i go out with jin & cass. never she will be there. i used to think forever 4 of us will be together. but as we seperated to different schools. our life became different. everyone seems to change le. whether it is physical or mentally change. yingshu of cos. became chio-er but more ah lian.. cass lehs. used to be nerdy but now pretty. also became abit naughty le. hahas. yarh. jin. physical change? i think she and me dun hav much difference lar. but she became more open minded and clever. kinda impress by her knowledge. *jealous* but talking to her seems soo chim. LOLS! yarh. now also the same bah. FRIEND FOREVER? HAHS! no such thing. in my life, people seems to go in and out of my lifes. haiz.. oyarh. another EXAMPLE!! lols. a girl which i know since K1 or rather younger, my neighbour and schoolmate. hahas.her name is ruixin older than me one yr. when i am k1 and 2 everyday after school i will go her hse and play. hahas. until now every yr. i will go her hse once a yr. for CNY. hahas. but when i go her hse. we never talk. or rather very little lar. i prefer to talk to her younger sis. hahas. but it still good we celebrate CNY every year together. 10 yrs of friendship le bah. hahas..


9:40 PM