hmms. i think i should blog before i sleep bah. kinda relieved today. becasue i get to promote to sec 4. yeahs. but BOO! cause not all my friend is safe to get promoted.but they were given another chance. hais. i felt kinda sad for kahjing. if he don't go up this year. he will be retaining for 2 yr le bah. CHOI! touchwood!! lols. then he will be taking his o levels at 19? DON'T WANT!! lols. the class will be siann. without him. hahas. liang hao get to promote soo happy for him too. anyway, didn't do very well for this year. because i slacked alots. many agrees. haiz. anyway. this year's remarks by mr tan. hahas. its about the same as last yr which mr bay gave me. both form teachers say i am cheerful. hahas. i think they meant talkative. hahas. i think they should write : kelly, you are TOO talkative in class. pay more attention. wahahas. lame.. hahas. haiz, lately i tend to hurt myself by purpose. like punching and kicking the wall, but no matter how hard to hurt myself. i don't feel the pain anymore. cause there is more pain in my heart bah. i should just get over it, and continue my life. but more i think about it, then more i wanna hurt myself. but don't worry. i won't kill or cut myself. hahas. cause i scare of blood. if i wanan dead, i will dead pretty... hahas. and i can't think of anyway that could commit sucide and still dead pretty. hahas. lame.oyarh, i got something to ask from my friends. STOP CALLING MY NAME OR HIS NAME WHEN YOU SEE HIM WALKING PASS ME. i was quite pissed off today actually. when we are going back class from the hall. i was like walking pass him with my class. then hida started shouted KELLY, cedric lehs. i was like i am not blind right? why does she wanna do such stuff. i know she is NOT the only one of my friends who did this. but i just wanna say DON'T DO IT AGAIN. i will feel VERY VERY irritated. i guess he will feel irritated too. i am trying hard to forget my love for him. cause i carn forget EVERY PART of him. cause he is alway around me. i meant in school we see each other. soo for my good. when you see him just don't call his name in front of me. or say my name in front of him. and one more thing. STOP asking his friends what he think about me or he likes me anot.. I know the answer already. i know you peeps cares about me. but the more you cares about me, the more hurt i will be. i don't want to cry again.


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