arghh. over stress le. and angry from toe to head. LOLS! today after recess, i put all my anger on the chairs and tables in a lee class. overwhelming of stress. DYING SOON! never felt soo stress in exams before. sianns. exams is like this thursday. and is my least fav subj. CHINESE!! die! haiz.. then english.. haiz. next week, MORE EXAM!! haiz. when can i rest?? HAI!! die die. my god. help me.. haiz... i felt like shouting at someone. scolding someone. but i would not feel good to scold pple. sometimes i wonder. those pple who shout and shout at others w/o using their brain like a lee. do they feel good when they scold us? she is soo freako lor. today in class. i really is upset with someone le. until i almost cried. soo i didn talk at all. the murali & gang talk soo loudly shout & shout. i shout at them to ask them SHUT UP! a lee scold me say i keep talking today. DUH!! when did i talk. that the very first time i open my mouth to speak for her lesson okay. damn pissed off. she talk w/o using her brain. yar yar yar. she is alway right. i always wrong can?? my fault! my fault!! ANGRY!! i very stress le, still anyhow scold me. ARGH!! i reply her back. " WHEN DID I TALK SIA! I SHOUTED AT MURALI FOR YOU OKAY?" then she diam diam. EVERYTIME LIDDAT!! know that is her wrong always keep quiet. NO MANNERS! wun say sorry de wors. then, later she came to my table and ask us not to talk. and WE DIDN TALK AT ALL AGAIN!!! something wrong with her eyes or ears. today in her class me ; meijun and huda never talk lor. we soo guai also kena say by her. NOW, i know why pple just carn shut their mouth up when attending her lesson. because, you talk and dun talk also will kena scolding. arghh. she kept picking on us lor. arghh. haiz. hmms. dun talk abt her. make me more angry. hahas. another thing. i had been thinking recently... when i am younger, we always say friends forever , besties forever. is there really friends forever? those friends which we used to say friends forever like yingshu ; cass and jin. seems to have their new friends. this three girl which will really be my best friends which i hope to be forever seems further away le. i miss them. really do. like yingshu. she is my BEST friend of the three when i am in primary school, we had been friends since pri 3. now. she is no where to be found. except seeing her in msn or friendster. but we didn talk le. even when i go out with jin & cass. never she will be there. i used to think forever 4 of us will be together. but as we seperated to different schools. our life became different. everyone seems to change le. whether it is physical or mentally change. yingshu of cos. became chio-er but more ah lian.. cass lehs. used to be nerdy but now pretty. also became abit naughty le. hahas. yarh. jin. physical change? i think she and me dun hav much difference lar. but she became more open minded and clever. kinda impress by her knowledge. *jealous* but talking to her seems soo chim. LOLS! yarh. now also the same bah. FRIEND FOREVER? HAHS! no such thing. in my life, people seems to go in and out of my lifes. haiz.. oyarh. another EXAMPLE!! lols. a girl which i know since K1 or rather younger, my neighbour and schoolmate. hahas.her name is ruixin older than me one yr. when i am k1 and 2 everyday after school i will go her hse and play. hahas. until now every yr. i will go her hse once a yr. for CNY. hahas. but when i go her hse. we never talk. or rather very little lar. i prefer to talk to her younger sis. hahas. but it still good we celebrate CNY every year together. 10 yrs of friendship le bah. hahas..


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