it have been a couple of days since i blog. for some reasons. hahas. kind of tired of blogging le.. and no mood bah.. recently thought alots.. nth much of happiness to share. most of them is sorrow. hais.. now, i really dunno what to do le. i dun ask him to be with me or anything esle. i don't ask for anything.. sometimes. i wonder what am i asking for? i dunno!! maybe its time to let him go.. should i? since i felt that i really likes him. no other guy seem to get into me le.. although i had take another person to replace him. but the feeling ain the same.. is not the one i want. hais... how i hope.. i could lose my memories. and forget him.. with him... i just carn move on... cos. i am used to his cool-ness and him running away... or rather. it me who make myself dun move on. it because.. i dunno which path to walk... or it is like my leg is too numb to let me move on. people call em insane, mad.. i know.. i call myself that too. i am MAD!! i hate this feeling.. i feeling tight, numb. is this really what i want? i DUNNO!!!! I DUNNO!! I DUNNO!!!!
is he really ain worth for me? i dunno.. what i know is.. my heart won't be change easily. even i try to change.. it will cause me to miserable too. soo difficult! my heart had already died. lately.. i got a little feeling of dun want to see him but still wanna know what he is doing. just like friday. when i wanna go out of sch. i was asking gaja. where is him? what is he doing.. gaja told me he didn go for bb. then as i am walking out of school with my friends. we saw him. why let me see him? the more i see him. the more i felt trap. i really dunno what can i do le.. i am trap and stuck...can he tell me not to love him anymore. if he really dun like me... that will make me feel better.. all i want is his words. nth more. really nothing more...


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