haiz.. lols. i am left alone at home AGAIN!! argh. lols.. my mum n sis went to malaysia. i didn want to go. lols. i wanna play com. lols.. but i hope they buy something for me lor. lols.. maybe something to eat? lols. sure will buy they to eat come back de lar. lols my sis is a pig. lols. sure will go there eat this eat that de. lols. hahas.. now i am living my life by eating cup noodles. they will be back tml. hahas. but i will be out with sheena. lols. ytd my sis n mum went to my aunty hse stayed overnight. becos. they are leaving s'pore very early in the morning. so. the hse only left me n my bro. i dunno why i carn slp ytd. turning n tossing. lols. so i felt very eerie. cos. my bed is double decker bed marh. then i slp upper deck de. lols. then my sis not around. lol. then the lower deck will be no body slping. lols.. soo scary lor. hahas.. i lie on the bed abt 12.30 liddat. but i think i slept at 3 plus. lols. during this few hr.. aloads of thing came through my mind.. lols. aloads of regrets n mistake i made. i felt stupid. the biggest regrets is i am not willing to face the music during last yr the holiday. some of my friend should not lar. WM stuff. i regreted not going to band. and running away frm reality. i knew it a misunderstand. i hated her soo much becos. she scolded my parent.people can say whatever nasty words at me but not my parent!! she made me think of my dad.. that why i hated her soo much... i hate her until i dun wanna see her. then i started running away frm band. all becos. of her. and locked myself at my auntie hse. that why pple thought i went missing.. then there was once. fakhrin smsed me. that i am given my last chance. the band camp. i really wanna go. i wanna decided to go de.. but god dun wat me to go.. the night before. i got sick. and go to hospital and go on drip. when i go home next morning. i am real sick after the drip. vomiting alots. i carn even eat. i missed the last chance. the very very last chance. i really wanna go back. of cos. i lock myself in my auntie hse again. even my mum is asking me to go back home. i dun want. but i also should be blame lar. if i really wanna go back. i will go back earlier. but i felt that i no longer belong to saxophone le. alway feeling being left out. ever since i go back to saxophone frm horn. i have been feeling that le.. haiz. my life seem different le. w/o them.. heartbroken. haiz.. and one more regret. never study last yr. streaming you know!! hahas. i wanted to go a1 soo much. but i didn work hard. lols. nvm. this yr even i got SOO MUCH TIME FOR MYSELF!! still dun wanna study. haiz. i wanna the sec 1 me back.. soo hardworking. lols.. hahas.. this yr mrs yong come back. still ask me in A1 arhh. lols. i say no. A2. her face totally changed sia. she have high expectation for me lar. hahas.. WHATEVER LAR!! hahas. wah.. today got soo much to blog arh. lols.. actually got more de. lols.


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