haiis. i wanna cry le. not becos. i sad. is becos. i felt very stress. hais. why people wanna care everything abt me? there is something i dun want them to care abt. when i need their care. they are nowhere to be found. today at green carnival closing. not that i wanna show attitude. i am really pissed off. by the twins. why must they soo kpo go tell mr tan i like mrNG. i am really angry lor. then chermaine say abt my earstud. i dun really angry abt that. is that cherilyn. WHY must she shout at me. she think prefect very big issit. i very angry with you le lor. you think you talk not more enough arh. i just beside you. must shout marh? i almost deaf you noe. you this kind of prefect ruin my life in sch only. shout shout shout. carn you just shudd upp. i dun you to care abt me. even mrs danapal didn comment. you dun need to say soo much. A LOH comment abt me also not your problem. somemore now she didn say anything le. YOU NOT NEED TO TALK SOO MUCH. COPY YOUR SISTER TALK ONLY. TWIN SOO WHAT? your sister say me i dun mind. at least she talk me nicely. you lehs. only know how to shout. shout wun solve problem de lor. anyway. i am deaf. i carn hear what you say. save your breath and shut up! stop polluting the enviroment. noise pollution you know? i very stress abt my studies also. everyone like working soo hard. i still carn get focus. i really wanna study. but i am alway distracted by personal feeling. whenever i think abt mrng. i tend to be very upset and get distracted and get very moody. i like alway keep my feeling to myself. i feel upset, i feel hurt but whenever i go i tend to pretend i am happy. whenever i see him. i pretended that i am even happier. but he dunnoe i am bleeding in my heart. i am very hurt. he will never know how i feel.. i just dun want to let him see the weak side of me. i want him to see the brave side of me. haiis. now i tend to be very inconfident le. after going into life in sec sch. i change le. and is alots. in my attitude. i tend to cry alot. alot more than pri sch life. rmb in sec 1. i am really a crybaby. hahas. now lehs. i kept the tears in my heart. i bear with it. when i carn take it anymore. i cry alone. i dun wan pple to see me cry. i dun want pple to see the real me. i wanna be happy.. really.. but.. it have been very long since i have a real laughter. everything seem out of my way. i carn decide my fate le. my studies start to slack again. i really hope i can do well. i need help.. hais. my life is really suck. i never felt soo upset in my whole 15 yr of life before. haiis. i hate myself. i hate the life i am having now. i wished to change it. =(


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