hais.. friday was a terrible days, six of us cry... differents reasons but the same start. the feeling is terrible lahs. I know each of us have stress. Regarding on studies, family or the relationship stuff. Just have some words to say to each sixsome lahs. I am sound harsh but pardon me. As i wanna say all this to make you all wake up!

Sheena:
Like i said, the more you care, the more hurt you will get... I know how you feel.. Cos, now your life is like last year de me... Think in the postive ways, dun everything think that you are the worse. Imagine.. I like that guy for about 2 years le. How many times i really cry out loud for him? Only once... And what about you? How long you have like him? How many times you got rejected? Do you think you are better than me? I know you might say... I am stronger and braver. But i can tell you. You can too. You always told me to move on... Now, i shall tell you to move on... I know its difficult.. But do you think you are trying hard enough? or trying to find excuses on why you carn move on? I am sound a little harsh now... it because i dun want you to be like me. You still can like him... but at least give him his life back. Dun make him feel that someone is feeling miserable because of him... Dun change his life... This is what i did wrong...So now, you know why i dun wanna care about him anymore? Because, i want to return back to him his life. I hope you will understand what i am saying... and really no one wants such stuff to happen.

Chermaine:
Do you know it upset to hear that no one cares about you? But i can tell you...People do cares about you. If people dun care about you... then wun even wants to talk to you and wun even wants to backstab you. So what people backstab you behide your back? You shall believe in yourself first and ask yourself why they want to backstab you? You should think why they say such stuff about you? Are you really like what they say? A person will not anyhow backstab you if you are not in wrong? Even whatever people say is wrong. You shall believe in yourself and prove them that they are wrong. I know you might be thinking that you have change or everyone may be thinking you have change. I can tell you. You need not to change from the start. You need not to change to seek attention or want others to treat you better. Do you know the more you care about changing to want other to treat you better make you a little fake? Just relax and move on... ANd lastly, i wanna say to you. you need not to bother about what people say...just believe in yourself and be the natural chermaine. and one quote for : Some words are meant unsaid. You shall know the meaning bahs.

Szuchian:
You really scare me today. What i can say to you is... you are living your life. not the life living in you. First, you must accept the life to be unfair. you may think people are not born to suffer. Or you are thinking you are suffering... but do you know. there will be always a person worse than you. I know you are stress in many things.. As for your family stuff, i know it is difficult to solve, and i know i carn really give you advice about it. cos, my family background is different. But i can say, whatever the pig is doing, he will get bao yin next time. He have not wake up yet, all everything he do is violent. You cannot let him do whatever he wants. or .. this stuff will continues.. and you forever wun find peace. As for your studies, i know what is you weak at, all i can say is.. you are hardworking de.. just that you carn find a way to excel. You must read more english book.English is very important you know? Read more.. you will then know more words. if there is words you dunno what the meaning, you can check dictionary or find your friends, surely one of us will know the meaning de.. And everytime before you answer a questions, READ carefully and know the meaning before you answer it.

Cherilyn:
You also! Don't be upset. Even if you are upset or what. you carn stop every thing. Don't be soo excited. You know you are sick. soo you must take care.. and get well first before you start getting work up and stop everything. Health more important.

Joseph:
Don't get too stress in your studies. Stress will only pull down the productivity of your work. You wouldn get anywhere with stress. You are a very hardworking person. you will do it de. i believe in you. And as for your mum getting sick and you are worry. Now, it the time you show her that you cares and need not her to worry too much about you. I predict your mum dun want you to get stress in your studies. I know she wants you to do your best jiu hao le. you need not to go beyond your limit. Do whatever you think is your best, i know you wun disappoint your mum de. Jia you okay? And dun too stress until sick wors. take care..



This is what i wanna say to you guy lahs. I know i am not anywhere better. But at least i can do everything to make my day the best. Life is short lahs. If you all continue to be like that, what if one of us die the next day. You will regret your own life of not cherishing each other. Life in bowen getting shorter and shorter. N level this year, would you rather fight with each other and couldn get into mood to study or rather we work together and strive for N level. I really believe 6 of us can get into sec 5 next year. the only matter is whether you are willing to. If you kept saying you surely cannot get into sec 5 next year. You think you will get in? the answer is no. If you think you cannot, you think the others can say you can? You need to say that you can and even people dun believe that you can. You should convince that them that you can. I really hate to see this kind of thing happen between us lahs. I know you all dun want it too.

And you two little girl who make us all very upset:
A simple sorry makes things better. You need not to wait for the person to say sorry to you. As you both know you both were in wrong. So why not just say a simple sorry and settle everything? Actually i dun wish to bother about you two de stuff de.. But things are getting out of hand. and my kelian de szuchian is like suffering between both of you. Have you even think of kelian de szuchian de feeling. If you are feeling that you are the victim. i can tell you. Then middleman is the victim. not you all.

I hope you all will think through lorhs. no point fighting at all. if this continue... nothing will come to a end...


12:36 AM

OUTER

wahhs. just noticed that it have been a long time since i blogged. i am getting lazy with this blogging stuff as my life seems to be like very plain and simple lately.

many people asked me about Nat... and tell me lots of stuff about him... but now... i am a little not interested about him. anyways, i going to change the pic of my blog soon. hahas.. i shall get aout of the idol chasing and focus about my studies.

i am AIMING for a 4 pts. Best three subject, I hope English i can at least get an A2, while math and combined hum or art get A1 bahs. hahas.. YOu may be thinking... English A2? what a joke right? I know my english suck lahs.. hahas.. But i will do my best de!~ Mass Comm need to have A2 for English lehs... and thats for O level. If N level, i cannot even get an A2. O level surely cannot get le lahs!~ hahas.. Nvm...

A good piece of news! I finally do finish my final composition for my art le!~
I CAN START CANVAS LE!!~ hahas... FINALLY! SOOO HAPPY!~ I HAVE LONG TO START MY CANVAS~!

but bad news. i have to do 3 Plate as in Sketchs, Composition and Colour Shemes and have to paint at least 2 object on my canvas BY 25 APRIL! =(
STRESSED!~

hais, my leg pain!~ hahas.. got a very very big blue black on my leg.T-T. play with Junda until got blue black. hahas. stupid right? Junda leg is like metal liddat. Kick his leg then now soo pain. hahas...

oyahs, YEAHNESS!~ PORNSAK WON IN WAY TO GO AGAIN!~<33


INNER

hais.. 583 days le... Does he know i still like him alots?


10:39 PM

hahas....
seem like many pple is interested in 王子！
hehe! 他很帥吧！哈哈！

here i have a profile of 王子!
he is 18 this year lahs. older than by 2 yrs. hahas. 1989 baby.

Name: Prince(王子)
Full Name:邱勝翊
DOB:1989-04-14 { coming soon!!}
Blood Type:O
Height:172cm
Weight: 52kg
Education Level: High School
Specialty: Singing


he is from 棒棒堂！


很可愛吧！哈哈！


bleahs!!



可愛！！真得很可愛！


10:48 PM

KNS!~ hahas.. i just now post de all no more.. i have been writing that for an hr! kaos.
Nevermind. i am lazy to post already...

I just wanna post some pic! hahas..
MY LATEST ADDICTION!!
棒棒糖 的 王子！他是我的白馬王子！！ 哈哈！爲什麽新加坡沒有這麽可愛的男生？好傷心！！
hahas.. 王子 is older than me by 1 yr!! hahas.. or rather less than a yr! hahas.. and he is super CUTE! hahas.. <33

我的白馬王子！！　哈哈！很帥對嗎？


啊！好可愛！我要瘋了！


可愛吧！他就是我愛的王子了！　我好愛好愛他！

哈哈！不要說我移情別戀！I still like Nat de hor!! hahas....

my latest pic with him! hahas...<3

and another addiction... PORNSAK!

Pornsak and Me at Grandfinal! =)

wahhs!~ you must be thinking.. wahs.. Kelly type chinese lehs.. wahahas.. not bad right! hahas..I wanna try typing chinese!~ hahas. to improve in my chinese of course!~ hahas...


12:05 AM

HAHAS!~ ytd i am dead tired lahs..that why i never blog about the gathering. although today also super tired lahs.. hahas...


14 march. { Nat gathering}
firstly, i am quite moodless lahs.. hahas... and i dun dare to shout at fans!~ hahas.. i scare de zhui ren. hahas... but i dunno why still got SOME fans hate me lahs.. i really dunno what happen sia to make them dun like me. i dun remember i did anything wrong ... whatever. hahas.. if i really did anything wrong. I AM SORRY!~ please forgive me. =) . anyways, let start saying what we did ytd !~ hahas.. First is to wait for Nat lahs. Hahas.. Stupid Nat ! Come late!! although i tell him dun come soo early to spoil the fun!~ but not soo late lahs!~ hahas... he say he on something on in the morning.. He went to gym lor!~ idiot!~ hahas.. kidding lahs.. he not an idiot! yeahs!~ then we went ?? about the place to go.. at last we found a place. hahas.. then introduce ourself a little bit. then went to play Crocodile crossing which Nat played CHEAT! hahas.. nvm.. he played cheat to help a grp. i played cheat to help another grp lor. HAHAS!~ then we have the crossword games. hahas. which ended pretty fast.{ not bad pple know Nat alots!~ } hahas... then next they play the game called 7 up which Nat suggest. hahas. i never play much lahs.. hahas. cos, my math suck? lols... I scare must sing song!~ hahas.. never mind. then we played a trival game which is a Qns and Answer game too. And the qns is like... HAHAS! very difficult one!~ hahas... and the qns is very last min.. soo some i dunno answer myself. Like when i ask Nat to help me create the qns. hahas.. I ask him how tall is he? He ask me guess. then i said 176. then he said NO lahs. 175cm. hahas.. then i said Huh. i 166 lehs.. LOLS~ then he said I can be air stewardess. HAHAS!~ then i said i dun want lahs.. HAHAS!~ then he kept asking me to be air stewardess. hahas. CAN YOU IMAGINE if i be air stewardess? hahas... nvm lahs. let continue. then have a little singing session. hahas.. then continue to play games? called guess guess who am i? Which... the group will come out with a representive. On top of the rep, there will be a person who is from top 24. then they must ask qns and guess who the person is. then jiu makan session le bahs.. hahas... then Nat go entertain the other fans.. Me, cutecompany, Andrew, yichao, yuinhwei,peiyi and song xian sang song very loudly to catch Nat attention lahs. HAHAS!~ then have a little autograph session and pic taking.. Then getting dark le... jiu.. go MAC lor. HAHAS!~ then autograph and phototaking session again. WAHAHS!~ that when we DAMN higH!~ hahas...
then, i went home with Ryan, YuinHwei . hahas... oyah.. And the BEAR! hahas. Nat love it very much!~ hahas...

TO ALL FANS!~
Nat wanna say a BIG THANK YOU for attending the gathering oh!~ AND he said he love it very much!~ hahas.

15 MARCH.
hahas. had Vocal lesson today. Damn sian!~ BUT I FINALLY master a skill!~ hahas.. HAPPY LAHS!~ and for other stuff. DAMN HAPPY kays. hahas.. acting cool always!~ hahas..


2:15 AM

heyo!~
the lazy kelly is back!~

Anyways, i was very busy lately... Busy planning Nat's gathering.. then school.. then practise singing...

Lately, singing Jie tuo frm Zhang hui mei. YEahs!! I love sing ah mei songs!! hahas..
SHE ROCKS lahs!

Wednesday.
Stupid! Two art teacher never come! Mr Zheng never come never mind lor.. Miss Looi must come! cause, all my art stuff with her. =( I WANNA START MY CANVAS! lols... nvm..

Thursday.
It was a super disappointing and tired day... hahas... but happy too. Right after school have to go to amk hub area and buy cloth.. then shopping with Sheena and Junda.. then.. what until 6 pm liddat... i got to rush to Chinatown for my vocal lessons in my school uniform. argh. hahas.. but at there, saw Jeff laoshi and talk to him about his gathering. { yes. there is a gathering for jeff} . Then when i walked further in.. I saw weejian in a room! hahas.. playing guitar. yea.. then i said weejian lehs.. lols.. then dunno who said my eye very good.. Hahas.. OF COURSE lahs.. hahas.. My eyes is especially to spot superstars! lols.. then were ask to go in the room.. okay lor.. but inside got pple reading then me and Winnie talk soo loud like disturb her .. soo go out of the room again.. Then Angela ahs! She suan us say we waiting for weejian to finish class. Then i say NO lor. Hahas.. I also dunno what time he finish his lesson mahs. hahas.. the main purpose is JEFF laoshi lor. =X kidding lahs. Kays.. the lesson starts, got to know a new friend. Vanessa! She is a super nice girl. hahas.. and she know the three musketeer. LOLS! She is close to Kwan? Soo good man! hahas... among the three musketeer. i only dunno kwan. hahas.. cos, nth to tell him! hahas.. But I know he is a supper nice and sincere guy! hahas... alright.. Lesson is terrible for start lahs.. Got to sing Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin.. which me and Vanessa is ? towards it. hahas.. We know nuts about the song. hahas.. Soo we alway go off tempo. hahas.. Must be understanding lah. We are younger generation! wahahas.. Anyways, Vanessa is the same age as me. LOLS! yeah yeahs.. i though i might me the youngest in class. Hahas.. Now, got people same age.. damn happy!~ hahas..

Friday,
As usual lahs.. Hahas.. went to ktv to sing .. JIE TUO~ LOLS!

Today,
ROT at home...
lols.


9:54 PM

HEY peeps.

GOOD NEWS!
NAT'S GATHERING IS COMING VERY VERY SOON!!
14 MARCH..

for further information,
or to register, please add me in MSN.

kellylam91@hotmail.com


11:46 PM

anyway, i am going to write my blog in such way as OUTER and INNER le.. and will try to put more pics lahs.. LOLS!

OUTER ;
yesterday, i was quite pissed off with MRS CHENG.
which i dun wanna mention anymore.. hahas.. I am still angry with her.. cause i really wanna stay back ytd.. as i really missed Nat.. HMPH. Really very long never see him le lor.. hais.. >.<
I MISS TALKING TO NAT FACE TO FACE!~!
ahhs!!!

the show was quite interesting lahs.. Didn fall asleep. hahas... I say i won't shout..
but i kept shouting.. even though quite paiseh when i shout even louder the bowen's famous loudspeaker. hahas... I shouted for Alejandro, NAT and Jeff.. Hahas..

Me, Nat and Jeff very funny lahs.. Use eye contact to communicate de. LOLS!

The best part was when Yulin and I was discussing about Kwan anad Jeff's shoes for fun.. then Nat starting to look at us and showed us some actions that i dun understand. LOLS! then i shout back.. Hahas.. I not saying about you lahs.. I talking about Jeff lor.. Then he sad sad then guai guai de move back let me see Jeff. hahas.. But he know i just joking with him lahs.. Hahas.. Cute lah him!

Jeff also another weird guy.. Hahas.. Look at me and say i pontent class. LOLS~ not deliberately de lor.. LOLS!! If i go class you think you can play with me when recording? LOLS!! and your eye brow wun cramp de ahs? LOLS!! anyway sorry lah, Laoshi~ LOVE YOU kays?

Didn manage to get any signature or picture of him. My cam SPOIL! arghh.. sad sad...=(

INNER ;

hais. i am very confused.. I really like him? hais.. When he is beside me my heart beat non stop. When i never see him.. I miss him... WHen a girl is very close to her.. I tend to be jealous.. Can anyone answer me? DO I REALLY LIKE HIM?


6:31 PM

Hey yo! hahas. soo long since i blog huh.. ANyways, I am back from CAMP! hhas. at first, we were kinda cheated to go.. but afterall we didn regreted going..
alright..

FIRST DAY,
it wasn a great at first.. as Junkai were pissed off only at the start of the camp by some people that i shall not mention.. I meant.. He have to do his part to chose the member too right? So what you want the whole class to be together. We prefer to be with Junkai.. anyways, that past alreadyy soo it okay le lahs.
But afterall, Jasmine became the Platoon Commander(PC). In the Platoon, there is Me, Cherilyn, JunKai, SimJun, WanYu, Ain, Hanisah,ShiKin, Wafi, Zinnia, Ridzuan, Louis, Megan and Aarrathi, Celina and Carol. Yah.. Then actually wanna chose Jason as the PM de. But we did wanna fight with another grp as we aradi got 10000 push up to do. So.. afterall we got Rey, the last PM that no one chose. hahas.. So it alright lahs. Cos, He was the BEST lahs. hahas..
So, we did high element, NICE lahs.. I think those people which never do shall regret. Hahas..
My spine still hurt.. Haiz.. Rey is soo NICE lahs.. We get to shower with warm water. YEahs. but we had to sleep on cold hard floor but of cos, on sleeping bag.

SECOND DAY;
Super tiring day! hahas. But I like.. first we got to play time crisis lahs. I like the part when skipping only. cos, the others game we were like shouting at each other.. Only the skipping part we were encouraging each other lor. then we must shout contacted when we saw other grp on the walkway. hahas.. and 10 km walk is tiring and my old foot injury is like coming back again.. But i love walking! wahahas.. But during the night, we made Rey angry again.. Hais.. We felt really bad lahs.. But we were really *bu fu qi* . Because the other grp really cheated lahs. Nvm.. it just a game afterall.. After the game, Raymond talked to us lahs.. But i don't really wanna give a damn.. as i didn think as much as they did lahs.. I just wanna see how Rey is lor.. He is like really angry le.. hais... After that when we suppose to have supper i think. we did a super sweet thing to Rey lahs.. Making of me thinking that the person i used to hate is actually quite Nice and sweet. We all say sorry very loudly to Rey lahs.. And we really mean it. Then we talked about the person we appreciate.. and thinking of it was the last night.. it was really sad lahs.. Almost cried..

THIRD DAY;
the last day... =( . kinda sad to leave while happy cause i can go home le! wahahas.. Many of us cried.. i almost cried too. but force myself not to cry.. I don't want to cry anymore lahs.. hahas.. We have something like Pass out parade lahs.. Rey is like *piang* lor.. hahas.. He say i am very enthu. hahas.. and something lahs. about PMK! hahas.. then JunKai was the best trooper for my platoon. Expected lahs.. hahas... Then the best platoon of Delta, we got it too.. But we didn expect it.. We thought Delta 2 will get it.. hahas.. Shocking lahs.. Then we got to leave the place already.. Sad.. sad.. In the bus, Raymond and Rey declared that they were not brothers.. I was like arghh!! CHEATER! whahaas.. Raymond is 23? i dun quite believe it lehs! wahhaas.. Rey is 18.. i actually believed it.. As he once said he just finish O level. then was a 3 pointer when N level. hahas.. Anyway, When we reach back school.. kinda sad.. but i suddenly became very hyperactive lahs.. Saw Joseph so HAPPY! the sixsome finally reunited. hahas.. Then when to disturb the instructor.. and took many many pic! hahas.. Yes..

OVERALL;
I miss Rey alots! hahas.. not only me lahs.. Many of us miss him.. Simjun, JunKai, Ridzuan, Cherilyn, Wanyu .. we all miss him lots.. But unable to contact him lahs.. =(


PICTURE;


Me, Cherilyn, and the BEST PM on earth, Rey! HE ROCKS!


Me, Sheena and mr BEAR, Chong Chiat! wahahas.. He is CUTE lahs.


Me and MONKEY Melvin! hahas..


Twinny, Me and mr. YANDAO, Jason.. He is damn shuai lahs..


The PMs! hahas.. Cute lahs all of them.. John spoil the pic! Rey super CUTE! Raymond too!


4:56 PM