I don't really feel like blogging. hahas..

Just wanna say HAPPY VALENTINE DAY! HAHAS!

anyway, math test is very difficult. hahas.. But today quite happy. hahas. I actually passed my Physic test. hahas. 68/100. hahas. I got the same as Simjun. hahas. Tie third in class with her. Stupid Gabriel. Got 88/100. He was like soo slack in class, never listen to class, still can get 88! I know new year coming. 88 is a lucky number right? LOLS!


5:12 PM

Actually my day is quite alright. hahas.

Cause, the english paper is rather easy to me. BUT! the combined science paper is like a foreign paper to me. hahas. I don't know how to do! The paper is really very difficult to do. Haiz. Never mind~

Haiz, tomorrow is Valentine day. Boring day again lahs! hahas.. Got people ask me go out lahs. But i rather look at my computer than going out with him. hahas.. Nevermind. Aiyahs! I forget to buy chocolates for my friend tmr. hahas. I think i tmr go early go prime buy bahs! hahas..

Hais.
He haven call me yet.. He soo bad can? hahas.. Haiz.. I wanna know when he free lehs. Hahas. I wanna to go out with him lehs! hahas..

* My heart is breaking a part day after day. :'(


8:46 PM

New blogsong. hahas. I really liked this song, as it really reflect my feeling. The moment i listened to this song, i felt i was in it.. hehe actually took it from hanxiang blog. hees~ Cos, kinda curious how he do in O levels. He was the top student wors. 12 pts! WOW! CONGRATS TO HANXIANG!

Anyways,

Yesterday, I asked my kor how he did. Haiz.. I dunno shall say not bad or what. hahas. 21 pts. He made me kinda scare for my O level next yr. Kinda demoralised. How? hahas.. I want at least 16 pts. So i am mugging hard. Since PSS2 had over and i am trying hard to get my life back but with a new additional friend, Nat. I won't go crazy because of him okay? He is like my Big brother. The guy that i look up to. I really felt better having him by my side. He gave me more confident and to love myself more. I might have changed. But i prefer this me. Because, this way i felt more happy being myself. Don't worry kays peeps?

I went to NYJC ytd, I found out there have beautiful STARS! hahas. I like! Not the pple de STAR lahs! the Stars in the sky. hahas.. Went there for the ONE competition. But that not the main reason lah. I went there as Nat is the guest singer. hahas. My lobang from Yichao. hahas.. The WINNER for the ONE is S6, Nat Tan. hahas. Kidding lahs. No such thing as S6 also. the Winner is actually a cute guy called Javin who sang the song ChuMo very well. My votes were for him lahs! hahas. Anyway, Nat sang my song! hahas. Hui You Na Me Yi Tian by JJLin. hahas. That was the song i kept singing recently and the song i sang for the audition for FM. hahas. He ahs! hahas..

Today, it is SPRING CLEANING DAY! hahas. My roon became BLUE! hahas. I decided to paint some stars up . hahas..

I am tired already, good night~


* If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and ya know I'd never let you go


3:22 AM

Hihi! today very early bloog hor? hahas. 3.08 PM now. hahas.. Today, nothing happen lahs. But later going to find Nat! Where? I dun want to say!~! hahas!! I come back then say bahs. hahas.. Now, i carn run. hahas.. muscle pain. My two leg. haiz. Ytd run 4x100 and do long jump about 10 times. hahas. Sure leg pain. hahas. I think i too long never exercise le bahs. No stamina le. hahas.. I used to have better stamina back when i am in band. hahas.. Now? Can die. hahas.. I think i can exercise more. I like running but. No one accompany me to run . soo i never run lor. hahas..
Aiyahs. I think i go eat le. hahas. Tatas~

*The place where happiness is found*


3:08 PM

haiz. the show over le. I am finally FREE. but kinda sad. i starting to miss Nat and the other superstar le. hahas. Daren is the overall champ. hahas. Hmms. No feeling. hahas. Not happy and not sad. hahas.. Cos, in my heart only got one overall champ that NAT. hahas..The sms i recieved today is really touching. hahas. 10 SMS lor. He think he writing essay or compo? lols. He is CUTE lahs. hahas. Glad that He notice that he is not responsive and cold when he get eliminated. Hahas, but i understand lahs, i want him to rest too. anyways, NO MATTER WHAT, NAT IS STILL THE BEST! HAHAS! he ROCKS LIKE SIAOOOOO! hahas, NATMANIC ROCKS! HAHAS!

ANyways, recently i felt pretty stressed. VERY STRESS. I dunno what happening to me. STRESS for studies and relationship stuff. I am VERY VERY STRESS for my studeies. Totally not in mood to study at all. Totally not in mood to do my prep for art. ART SUCKS! I have totally no idea of what i am doing now. AHS! I got to pass up a composition on wed. AHS! STRESS AHS! Another thing that make me stress and broken is him lor. hahas. let name him mr T, the problem is the more love i got from him, the more broken i am. The problem is he dunno how much he is in my heart as he only treat me as a younger sister bah. The better he treat me, then worse i feel. I might feel blessed to have him by my side. but, after that i still felt bad. This love i have for him may be very inpractical. Cos, no way he will be with me. He is soo near yet soo far. He is like soo far away from me. I dunno what to do already. This feeling seems worse than the feeling i used to have for mr X. speaking of mr X. hahas. I felt that my latest addiction, Pornsak looks like mr X. hahas. So CUTE. alright i am crazy. hahas. But to mr T. hahas. ALthough when he treat me very well i will feel broken. But, if he treat me very cold, i will feel more bad. hahas. HAIZ! I AM STRESSED . He made me get over mr X. hahas. He is the only one that make me get over mr X. hahas. FINALLY. hahas. although sometimes i still go gaga over mr x. hahas. but it not a wrong thing to do what. there is a saying, a women won't ever forget the love they had for the guy. Even they had move on, they will still have feeling for them. I believe in that. hahas. That why, i still a little gaga over kean. hahas. But, he is just my friend now lahs. hahas.

It late. i think i go slp le byebye. Good night. hahas


10:56 PM